It is becoming fall, and the days are getting darker. In my mind, it still replays the terrible things that happened 1.5 years ago.
I thought I had set it aside, but it comes back when my mental state is weaker.
It took such a long time for me to heal this time. Though I totally understand there is a physical aspect of trauma that needs time to heal, I thought I was finally over it.
Probably, I have to admit that idealists do attract narcissists at some point in their lives. The experience can be deeply impactful, and the lessons learned are profound. We have to accept ourselves for trying hard to be perfectionists but also recognize that we have to live in an imperfect world.
Breathing helps, even if it's just a little. Inhale, and then exhale, letting all the stress out. Let's hope the stress of the trauma is able to finally release at some point.
To my idealist friends, if you have any tips that can help with my trauma, please share!